(Wrote this beginning part yesterday.) Wow!... Six more days until my goal! I've got to get my butt back in gear! I will... I just have to remind myself of my reason and get (re)motivated!!! :) I just have to WANT it!... Want to change more than I want to stay the same. AND I DO!!! Remember Melissa that you do NOT want to stay the way you are now.
Today's goals were:
1. Get back into the routine!!! No
2. Be to the gym by 0950. No
3. Write out an eating plan for the week. No.
4. Eat a veggie with dinner. Yes; went out to the Olive Garden w/Sarah & had their salad.
5. Fold the laundry (& put it away) that is done. No
Oops!... Boy, have I been slacking. UGH!!! I started this yesterday but obviously didn't finish it. I went over my calories last night by 2,116... I am SOOOOO ashamed to write that. I just cannot believe it. But see, that is what happens when you don't take care of yourself, when you don't make a plan... Your life just goes for what is easy... It is not the easy way that will help you make something of yourself. I am so disappointed in myself. I always do this!!!!! I haven't ever gone this far though. I am on my like 6th or 7th week of working out, I usually only last 2 or 3. :) Now I just need to move on from today and just pick back up tomorrow. I think once I've mastered that, it will help me tremendously. I can't just stop; I can't quit! I have too many people looking out for me... I can't let the others down. I am so tired right now... I'm probably not even making any sense. I didn't even track calories today... it was another bad day. Tomorrow is a new day. Right? I can do this!
Tomorrow's goals are:
1. Be to the gym by 0915 (Child Watch opens then).
2. Burn 700 calories on the elliptical!
3. Come home, get E a snack, shower, get us ready, & go to play date! :)
4. Just be cautious during lunch time (you know what you should and shouldn't have).
5. Eat a veggie with dinner.
Til tomorrow!
You are going to be just fine, Melissa. Give yourself the space to be human. I know that a lot of people are cheering for you, but you can't be doing this for them. You need to keep yourself in that #1 spot. It's not about whether you let someone down or disappoint someone else. How do you feel about what's going on? At the end of the day, you're the one who looks in the mirror, babe. You are the one who reflects on what's been going on in your life and weighs consequence/reward.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing an amazing job, and I'm so proud of you--you should be proud of you, too.