Day 20 of 173

Wow!!!...  How did 12 days just come and go like that?  Goes to show that you can either do something (constructive) while time passes or continue the way you are...  Time passes EITHER WAY!!!  And why wouldn't we want to be closer to our goals than when we started?!  We need to take each day and do a little bit each chance we get!  WE are the only ones that can change US!  Noone is going to come in and do it for us!  If I am sitting on the couch when I could be walking around my neighborhood, it is because I am choosing to do so.  OUCH!  What a harsh reality.  Why would ANYONE choose to look and feel the way I do?!?!  And again, Wow!!  The realizations are startling!  Now, if I could just remember all of this the next time I don't wanna go to the gym, go to the park with Ethan, or go for a walk around the neighborhood, I will be golden!!!

So, I've been thinking...  I bought The Eat-Clean Diet Companion when it first came out (copyright is 2009) but I never used it.  It's just been sitting on my shelf, collecting dust, but not any longer.  I have decided to use it!  I have decided to bring it everywhere I go!  I have decided to jot EVERYthing down, doodle all over it (if I want to), write down how I feel, etc.  It's gonna be part of my testimony!!!  I am excited...  Monday is a new day, the start of a new week, and the start of a new month.  I don't have any school and I will have TIME ON MY HANDS!!!  I am SOOO excited to prove to myself that I can do what I say I am going to do.  There have been so many times in the past that I have let myself down and then I feel like a complete and utter failure but I have decided to change that!  I have also decided that I am going to declutter something in this house every day during the month of March!!!  Then, on April 1st, I will have a garage sale to commemorate that decision!  :)  Anyone up to helping me price everything and set it all up?  That's the part I am dreading but I am READY for it.  This house has been cluttered for far too long.

Mark Twain once said, "The secret of getting ahead is getting started.  The secret to getting started is breaking your complex, overwhelming tasks into small, manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one."  Is that not the greatest thing you've ever "heard"!?!?...  Well, I am taking that to heart and writing out my goals today and breaking them down into tiny, every day, doable ones.

Here's to our continued journey!...

Day 8 of 173

Let me run you through my morning...  I had my alarm set for 7 so I could leave the house by 8 to be to the gym by 8:30.  Well, I didn't get out of bed until 8!!!  So, needless to say, I didn't get to the gym until about 8:50 or so.  But I STILL went to the gym!!  I didn't get up (late) and say screw it and fall back to sleep like I normally would have in the past.  I figured my workout partner, Kim, would be leaving by the time I got there but she wasn't.  She even GAVE me HER machine (elliptical) and she went and did the treadmill until the elliptical beside me opened up.  So she came back over.  Wasn't that so nice of her, though???  Anyways, when we are working out next to one another, we talk, and the time goes by SOOOO much faster.  Yeah, we're huffing and puffing trying to get our words out but we do nonetheless.  :)  So, I was about 12 minutes into my workout when she came back over and I was talking about how I want to burn 500 calories and cut out 500 calories (from eating) and that would equate to a 2 lb loss every week.  My original goal going into this morning was to do at least 30 minutes on the elliptical but I was past 30 minutes and about 300 calories burned into it, so I decided to keep going until I hit the 500 calorie mark!!!  And I am so proud to announce that I DID IT!!  I went for 51 minutes and burned 530 calories!!  :)  Thing that confuses me is that when I enter my cardio activity into myfitnesspal, it says I burned 993 calories!  Hmmmm...  I think I am going to go with 530.

I also counted my calories today...  So that is a HUGE plus for me as well.  I am taking baby steps; just focusing on today...  B/c that's all I can do!  Otherwise I get overwhelmed and can't seem to put one foot in front of the other.

Day 7 of 173

So...  As you can see I haven't been working out as much as I had originally planned.  BUT tomorrow is a new day and my goal for the day is to go to the gym!!  :)  Once there, I plan on doing (at least) 30 minutes of cardio!!  Will most likely do the elliptical trainer; I love this machine!!

Change is hard but I am bound and determined to not stop "trying."  I don't really like the word "try," b/c it means to me that one really doesn't want to do it and most likely, won't do it!  In the words of Yoda, "There is no try; there is only DO or DO NOT."  Isn't this so right??

Change is uncomfortable but doable.  If something wasn't worth it, then you wouldn't be uncomfortable going after it.  If it is too easy, it's probably not worth it!  And definitely NOT the thing you should be going after.

One other goal I am going to be working on is staying in the Word throughout the day.  I need this badly!!  I need to stop bad-mouthing myself and LOVE the person He has made me to be.  Now this, my friends, is the most difficult part for me.  But with prayer and determination, I will make it!!  :)

Day 2 of 173

Boy, am I sore!!...  Even my abs and obliques are sore.  But it's a good sore and I love it!!!  Gotta somehow make it to the gym tomorrow morning!  Gotta keep this up!  :)

On a different note, I am tired all the time...  Not feeling well either.  It comes and goes but it is always there!  Have a doc appt scheduled for this Thursday but we'll see how the roads are...  I am tired of not feeling well.  My plan was to go to the gym with Jason tonight but he had the City Counsel meeting so he couldn't go.  So earlier this afternoon I decided that I would either do my Biggest Loser yoga DVD or go to the gym this evening; I did neither.  But I (somehow) don't feel guilty about it.

I wish I didn't have a sweet tooth!  While at Crest tonight, waiting to checkout, I picked up four candy bars!  Why FOUR??  I have not the slightest idea.  It's not like I really have anyone to share with; Jason isn't all that keen on sweets (esp. candy bars).  I don't feel guilty about this either.  I haven't eaten any of them...  Yet.  But you know what the sad thing is?  If I eat it in front of Ethan, he is going to want some.  And that, my friends, is what I feel guilty about!!

Day 1 of 173

Today went off w/o a hitch!  It was an amazing morning; I was (and still am) extremely proud of myself.  Every time (in the past) I said I would meet a friend at the gym in the wee hours of the morning, I would set my alarm but when it went off in the morning, I would turn it off and go back to bed.  Not THIS morning!!  I had my alarm set for 0730 and got out of bed shortly after it went off.  I was at the gym by 0830 and my (beginning) goal was to do 20 minutes on the elliptical but once there and going, I did 30 minutes!!  :)

According to the machine, I burned 240 calories.  Within the next couple of weeks, though, I will be shooting for 500 calories.  Burn 500 by working out and cut out 500 calories/day and I will be well on my weigh (hahaha) to losing TWO lbs a week!!  That is my goal!  My ultimate goal is to be down to pre-baby weight by 29July.  That, my friends, is a loss of 66 lbs!

After the gym, Ethan and I stopped at Crest to get a few things that Sams didn't have last night.  We came home, ate brekky/lunch, then we both took a nap.  It kinda threw my whole day off b/c we didn't wake up til about 5:00 PM!!  I couldn't believe it!!  Ethan was gonna get a hair cut today b/c he goes back to daycare tomorrow but that didn't happen.  Will probably take him tomorrow after I pick him up; he needs it BAD!!

Working on a format for my blogs...  I wanna put down my lil goals for the day and whether I accomplished them or not but I haven't figured it out quite yet.  More to come...

Anxiously Awaiting Tomorrow Morning

I have decided to give this fat loss journey another go!  Tomorrow will be my first day back in the gym in months.  I am excited yet nervous.  I am excited because I am ready to get this thing started; I am so so SOO over being FAT!  Yet nervous because of all the other times I have failed.  :(  I know this whole thing is up to me but I haven't ever chosen to fail.  So what does that mean??

Okay...  Off to bed for me.  Got an early morning ahead of me and I can't wait to get started!