Why aren't I? B/c I'm not tired...I am super excited about starting LC1 tomorrow, although I am sure that is not the reason I am still awake. Who knows? I have so much going on in my mind. So many things to do tomorrow but I HAVE to make sure I spend time with my little blessing. I told him we could set up his sandbox tomorrow. He's really happy about that and I wouldn't want to disappoint him. This weekend really opened my eyes to a lot of things...We went to the Extraordinary Women's Conference in Tulsa. It was fantastic! And I will never forget when Lisa TerKeurst said to not forget that your blessings are blessings!!! So easily forgetable at times, isn't it??? Well, every time I get impatient with Ethan or mad at him, I remember that HE is a blessing! It helps...It really does!!!
Jason and I tried to have a baby for four years!!!! FOUR YEARS!!! Granted, it was off and on for those four years but still...We prayed...We shoulda bought stock in pregnancy tests. I can't even tell you how many times I was disappointed by the negative sign on those tests; many nights I would cry; many times I would wonder if we were gonna be parents. Then one day in November of 2007, I was at work, and just thinking about things and God revealed me that he will give us the desire of our hearts but we have to do OUR part also. We smoked, ate whatever we wanted, didn't work out; we weren't healthy!!! So, we decided to quit smoking, start working out, and eating right but if this didn't work then we would go see a doctor. I set my quit date for 26Nov07 and never looked back! I KNEW I would get pregnant if I did MY part. And then Jason quit in Dec 07 (I can't remember the exact date). I signed up with a trainer at the beginning of January 08 and we cleaned up our eating (sort of), we were making healthier choices. And a couple weeks into 2008, I started not feeling well every night around the same time and I looked at Jason (on a Wednesday) and told him that something's not right, so we went and bought a pregnancy test that evening, I took it about 10:00p (11:00p for family in MI) and when I went to look at it, I saw one very bold pink line (like usual; negative) AND a very, very, very, VERY faint second pink line! I WAS PREGNANT!!! I just KNEW it! But Jason told me not to get my hopes up (b/c I had always done so in the past and he hated seeing the disappointment on my face and hearing it in my voice) but I couldn't help it! I told him that there can't be a false positive...That all the others time I had taken a pregnancy test there had NEVER been a second line, EVER!!! I called everyone I knew that night...I didn't care WHAT time it was... I was so extremely excited! I knew that some people chose to wait that first trimester out before they told anyone but not me. I told any and everyone I came into contact with! :) And on September 22, 2008, we had our beautiful baby boy!!!
Anyways, all that to say that we were blessed and any child is a blessing! And I just have to remember that when he's getting on my last nerve!!! :D
Now I think I can finally go to sleep; g'nite all!!!
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